Ramadan? Yep...

       Ramadhan makin dekat. Denting waktu berkejar-kejaran hendak menyergapku, ya, terlambat, aku di penghujung Sya'ban. I can't lie; I'm missing this month; while realizing that next ramadhan will be so different from this one..

Yes, my last year in that 51-year aged school.

       Takbir terdengar bagai alunan merdu yang kudus;suci;agung. Hanya terhenyak. I'm an imperfect angel; splashed by the sins. Not pretending to be innocent; just wanna be honest. 'cause I used to think that there's an angel inside a woman; sometimes hidden. Sins; both practical and mindset. Sometimes I lose control.

        Memutar waktu? Impian klasik manusia. Fatamorgana, irrasional. Mimpi semu. Semua telah terucap, semua telah menjadi takdir; menguap bersama waktu yang pergi, tak terubah. Hanya qada dan qadar yang wajib kupercaya tentang ini. Berharap pada masa depan, karena Allah tidak akan merubah nasib suatu kaum jika mereka tak berusaha. Cry.. yeah I know, it seems too late to realize it now... But  I do believe God  had given me the best. Some unanswered dreams; could be bad for me, or just waiting for me somewhere. Restart my mind; It's Ramadan!

         Maaf. Beranikan diri tuk meminta; ikhlaskan hati tuk memberi. Keduanya berat; kuakui; kalau tak hanya sebagai seremonial belaka. Jabat tangan, merangkul; andai kau tahu, aku perlu bertanya kepada hatiku berkali-kali setelah tradisi itu. Munafikah aku? Naudzubillah... Oh, God, everyday, I just wanna be better than the gone days... Please release that bad mindset from me...

          Hati. Heart. The most complex thing than human has. Semuanya. Aku harus hilangkan semuanya. Start from beginning. Don't let every pain & revenge to take ahead. Wanna clear it.

          

           You know what? It feels so funny; It's more similar to a poetry. Whatever......

But it means, somehow, this ramadhan will be extraordinary;important...

Feels like everything ain't gonna over....

Why must it be too late for me to realize that my real lifepath will start soon?

Day 2

Yep, it's tuesday...
Feels so funny when I have to assure myself that this is Tuesday..
WHO CARES WHAT DAY IS TODAY WHEN YOU'RE ON HOLIDAY????

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It's me (again), spending my couple-week holiday, writing anything I want, although it seems in no clear direction, well I just wanna kill this boring day as my finger's touching the keyboard.
Azdan Zuhur is spreading around Bukittinggi, exploring all entire the side (wew, feel so calm..), breaking the silence, and becoming the-only-single-enchanting voice..


well that's my break time, after doing some ~mother-like~ activity; sweeping the floor, putting anything in the right order, cooking - although what I did is just frying :>


but not bad, at least I have much enough for browsing playing guitar, taking a nap : well they are called 'happy hour'... But it's better than doing a lotta homework, it's alright..


Bukit Apit, small village in Bukittinggi, feels so lonely.. no wonder if you look outside, well the sun shines strongly, let the sky glowing blue, and the clouds are floating smoothly..


and of course; it forces us to stay at home; considering the risk of becoming darker than before:)


Ina & Thifa? They're playing Tarzan Game at PC, well, they've finished it for hundred times, but they still like it (actually I re-downloaded the game 'cause it had ever been deleted before..)


Manis? I forget to tell you bout the poor cat; it jumped to a deep cold water well, when trying to safe its kitten (finally, it became a good mother!), but, unfortunately, they were frozen. They're buried somewhere.. I don't know..


But there's a male cat that gets used to play with us, somehow we called it Gagah (not so creative, huh?).. It's sleeping on my folded blanket (so much better than sleeping on my hand; what it used to do!)


there's no something special today, but the sky... It's so beautiful, a perfect color, so... gorgeous!


Wish I could go somewhere.....