leaving facebook ????

well, it's reasonable..

 although it's (rather) hard to make it as 100% real..

but here's the impact..

SAKIIIIK ATIIII !!!!!!!

Kacau, kacau....

well, it's not because I just figured out a status pointed to me, not like that..

tapi baa yo? kalau baco status urang-urang yang sadang sakik ati, mirip jo yg sadang dirasoan..

taulah baa rasonyo..

like when somebody's talking 'bout somebody else, bout it's in no direction, feels like it pointed everybody...

It makes every pain become deeper, better not to login as often as before, feels like it's destructing me. Especially if the author is my schoolmate, it's so f^^^ing for me,

IS THERE ANOTHER CYBERWORLD TO LIVE IN???

yep, sometimes ur friend gets angry when u didn't wall her in her birthday, although you've sung her a song loudly :p..

I know, everything 'bout technology depends on the users, but for now, it's better for me to disconnect for a while from facebook, 'cause now, I don't see any bright side of it, need to forget it until I need it so much...

I don't like this... although I know maybe I can't hold myself to login to FB someday..

It reminds me to my father. He had ever had a friend in FB, but the owner of the account keep attacking him, yeah, about work, politic view -somewhat!-

another reason: Sore eyes? Yeah! What the hell with the uppercase-lowercase-typed status??? (wH@t t#3 #3Ll??? :p)

it seems boring now....

or maybe I need to find some better friends in FB :p

so strange..!

okay,, somehow I need to tell ya, this post is the reason why I've changed some settings in this blog.. better not to let more people know (altrhough maybe I'm the only visitor, but never putting myself on trouble..)

hmm, terjadi lagi..
yup, ngga' nyangka, pas liburan..

de ja vu, or anyway u call it..

awalnya ngga' da niat untuk cerita, tapi, lama-lama siapa juga yang kuat diam sendiri..
kaget sendiri liat sesuatu..
bingung sendiri..

walau tentang hal sepele (kadang-kadang serius..), tapi efeknya sama : kaget, hampir sesak nafas, berfikir dalam..

kali ini tentang seorang teman..

She had a new blog, but it wasn't intended to be published.. I knew that when the other friend asked me 'bout blog template, in order to help her in creating her new blog..
in the night, I dremt something 'bout her, not the bad one..
I woke up, yep, nothing happened, being disapointed 'cause that's just a dream, and as usual:
FORGET IT!

and.. months passed.. everything was normal. She? I seldom talked with her; she's not my classmate; well, that's reasonable.. Our schedule is different, even sometimes we are different in the way of analyzing something..

finally, here's the holiday. The doctor said that I'm not allowed to look at the monitor more than an hour; relax ur eyes, please..
That's why...
So, I decided not to play game for a long period, justr typing, and I opened my blog... HER!
yep, I remember her.. hey??? It should be something same in our profile..
let's click the link.. and.. YES!
She's in the front page, finally..

Let's see her masterpiece :)

What a nice template, so fresh for my eyes, the right color, somehow it described her..
the web address could be memorized easily.. There's bliss on my heart, I had no idea 'bout it, there's no clue on why I have to fell so, but I did feel it! Yeah, somehow there's a great happiness, I felt so happy, although I was so confused; why???

And what are u waiting for?

I explored the blog, so fun! Everybody has his on way in expressing something honestly, and so she had!!! While reading, it's like listening to her voice.. :D

and.. I found a posting with interesting title : "Do u know?" Of course I wanna know!

that's a nice one, describing one of her character:curious.. Yep, that's absolutely her, I know 'cause....

'cause..

BECAUSE????????

huft?! something popped on myself.. what the hell...?
how could it be?

I know that because I had read this blog in my dream!
yep, the same enchanted feeling, that's the same, except: I called the other friend directly via phone, well, I won't..

it's not the first time..
dari ngeliat mama-papa pulang bawa sesuatu (dengan langkah jalan dan urutan yang persis) sampai mimpi kerasukan; dan kedua-duanya menjadi kenyataan..
I have no idea...

Audzubillahiminasyaitonirrajim......

Day 2

Yep, it's tuesday...
Feels so funny when I have to assure myself that this is Tuesday..
WHO CARES WHAT DAY IS TODAY WHEN YOU'RE ON HOLIDAY????

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It's me (again), spending my couple-week holiday, writing anything I want, although it seems in no clear direction, well I just wanna kill this boring day as my finger's touching the keyboard.
Azdan Zuhur is spreading around Bukittinggi, exploring all entire the side (wew, feel so calm..), breaking the silence, and becoming the-only-single-enchanting voice..


well that's my break time, after doing some ~mother-like~ activity; sweeping the floor, putting anything in the right order, cooking - although what I did is just frying :>


but not bad, at least I have much enough for browsing playing guitar, taking a nap : well they are called 'happy hour'... But it's better than doing a lotta homework, it's alright..


Bukit Apit, small village in Bukittinggi, feels so lonely.. no wonder if you look outside, well the sun shines strongly, let the sky glowing blue, and the clouds are floating smoothly..


and of course; it forces us to stay at home; considering the risk of becoming darker than before:)


Ina & Thifa? They're playing Tarzan Game at PC, well, they've finished it for hundred times, but they still like it (actually I re-downloaded the game 'cause it had ever been deleted before..)


Manis? I forget to tell you bout the poor cat; it jumped to a deep cold water well, when trying to safe its kitten (finally, it became a good mother!), but, unfortunately, they were frozen. They're buried somewhere.. I don't know..


But there's a male cat that gets used to play with us, somehow we called it Gagah (not so creative, huh?).. It's sleeping on my folded blanket (so much better than sleeping on my hand; what it used to do!)


there's no something special today, but the sky... It's so beautiful, a perfect color, so... gorgeous!


Wish I could go somewhere.....

liburan

hmm.....
maaf..

baru nongol sekarang (maklum, sibuk..)
^kikuk..

yah, walau diselingi SMS-an sama teman-teman yang lain, I'll tell u anything that's crossing my mind (yeah, not at all.. not my account password of course ^_^)..
semester 4 emang berat, menurutku sih gitu, dan.. ngga' bisa dibayangin gimana semester 5 dan 6 nanti, trus kuliah... trus cari kerja.. huuuuhh (melankolis+panik: lebay..)

and somehow, I guess it will be in my mind as long as holiday goes on!

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Biasanya, kalau liburan yang lalu, pertanyaan mama, "Besok mau kemana, nak? Berenang, yuk!" Atau, "Ada yang setuju kalau kita ke Pekan Baru?"

Iya deh, paling nggak,"Mi, besok tolongin bawa belanjaan mama yah, mama mau ke Pasar Bawah."

Emang sih, sebentar lagi Bukittinggi akan mengadakan Pemilu-Kada, dan papa, selaku camat, pasti sibuk ngurus ini-itu, dan kayaknya selama libur, gw (enakan gini ngetiknya) bakal jadi kucing rumahan.. huft..!

Tapi, bukan berarti papa-mama nggak pernah ngebahas tentang liburan (secara Thifa nanyain terus!)..

Kemarin, papa+mama nanyain gw...

"Mi, denger2 nilai kamu ningkat ya?"

Hmmmm.... biasanya, yang dibahas rencana liburan..

"Kurang dari 1 thn kamu bakal ninggalin rumah ya? Mau kemana, mi?"

DING!
Hah?
Banyak, banyak bgt...
Oh, God.. everything seems running over me.. OMG!
Well, it doesn't mean I never think of something like this, but... I just got closer with my classmates, feels like everything just started!
Sejak kelas X, yang ada di pikiran gw itu anything 'bout technology, dan yang pasti kalau yang minat kayak gitu, rata-rata ngincar PTN di Jawa,and so do I..
Tapi... Kok shock gini?
padahal dulu pengen cepet-cepet tamat SMA, trus kuliah sambil kerja sambilan.. Mungkin paginya jadi mahasiswa, siang atau sore jadi guru les SMP, atau kerja di bakery mana gitu...

Bener-bener di luar perkiraan...

Entahlah, walau ada pahit-getirnya, teman-teman SMA, siapapun dia, waktu dengar pertanyaan ortu, jadi keinget..
Dan memang, biasanya rasa sayang terhadap sesuatu akan sangat terasa ketika hampir atau telah kehilangan...

Dan saat itu, tak ada yang mampu membohongi perasaanya...


(sok puitis..! xD)